Feels like day one. But I’m calling it day 14.
That is all. I just want to sleep for a week. Im not even eating. Today all I had was a buddy bottle of stoney and a third of a packet of crisps. It’s not healthy but I just didn’t want to cook or eat a meal.
Wish I could stay home and sleep for a week. Gonna think about my future self.
I had to pick out toys that represented how ppl see me, how I feel when I get attacked and how i want to be.
I picked out a smurf as how ppl see me. Small cute harmless and always smiling.
When I get attacked, I picked out a giant strong gorilla. Nobody sees this but me. I become that in the corner in the dark when I try to fight for myself And who i am.
For the woman I want to be, I picked out a lion. Strong calm unconcerned. The lion owns his spot. Regal.