Nothings happened. But he’s so sweet.
He whatsapps every morning and night. He comes to see me at my desk. He looks at me like he can’t believe I’m spending time with him.
Hes a total nerd. He’s really slow.
Yesterday I told him to come kiss me before he goes home. He came. We walked around the office. He took me to my car and he left.
Then he whatsapped me to ask if I’m disappointed.
It’s so cute.
He remembers everything I’ve ever said to him… Even though I’ve forgotten it all. He’s a nice guy and all the woman chat to him… But he treats me as if I’m the only one that exists. And he’s soooo nervous around me.
I think for the first time in a long time I may have a crush on someone. Yes its too soon. I’m not rushing into anything new. I don’t want to treat him as a rebound. But when he stands close to me, i feel myself giggle and for a moment I stop breathing. With my ex I was the giggling schoolgirl and he was the confident jock who just wanted me.
He never tells me I look beautiful or cute or he likes my dress… But even on my ugliest days I feel like he thinks I’m amazing.
I don’t know. He’s three years younger than me. I still get flashbacks of my ex… When I do I just feel numb. Sometimes it’s a good time, sometimes bad, sometimes its him being intimate with that other woman… I hate that I know how both the women look…