Can someone please tell me why I want him back so badly? Is it ego? Denial? Disbelief? Low self esteem? Loneliness?
All I can think about is how much he hurt me. But because he was my comfort for so long, all I want is for him to hold me and make it go away.
I’ve been thinking about the subtle ways he broke me down. I imagine going for couple counselling and them making it all better. Wave a magic wand and we work again. We’re good again.
Things he’d say:
“it’s because of you I’m angry”
“you always know how to.push my buttons”
“you don’t know how to communicate”
“I wish u knew how to talk to me”
“now you’re gonna go and cut yourself”
“I’m disappointed in you”
“you just can’t trust me”
“you just won’t believe how much I love you”
“you don’t see how much I do.for you”
“are you going to send me another email”
“you keep saying things and apologising”
“you don’t know what you want”
I don’t know. Do these even sound like abuse?